| Thursday, July 16th, 2009 |
| 12:34 am |
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| Wednesday, July 15th, 2009 |
| 1:49 pm |
B is for Baby
 A while back Frippy bought Dagny the Charley Harper ABCs board book. It is gorgeous and the kids love it. I read through it a couple times a day to the kids. Today Dagny was sitting next to me opening and closing the book and yelling at it like she was bossing it around but laughing at the same time like it was the funniest thing. I was nervous about having a little baby because I have a lot more experience with older children but after being around Dagny at this age I know I am going to miss these days. She is a joy to be around. The fact that she doesn't talk yet doesn't matter because she communicates to me just fine most of the time. |
| 11:25 am |
Dagny is standing now!
 Dagny has been pulling herself up a lot lately like in the photo above. Last night she pulled herself up all the way to standing in our room and then stood there eating her cheerios like it was no big deal. ( this week in photos ) |
| Tuesday, July 14th, 2009 |
| 11:33 pm |
Green eggs and ham
When I was a kid my dad made green eggs and ham because he thought it would be funny. I would not could not eat green eggs and ham. I was so grossed out that the eggs were green and looking back I know that probably hurt my dad's feelings because it was such a cute idea. Since dad died I don't feel guilty about the fights or any of the big stuff that went wrong between us. It's the little ways I disappointed him that bother me. I know it's no big deal but dad had a hard life and he took it out on everyone around him but when he was cool he was ultra cool. I never got to tell him that because I was too busy resenting him for all the times he was an asshole. |
| 9:51 pm |
Oh eff you. Teh funnies.
ONEToday at lunch I was finger spelling the foods we were eating and I tell the 3 year old "t-o-f-u" spells tofu. He smiles and looks back at me and says "o-f-u, mana." I had to bite my tongue so I didn't laugh. TWOHe also runs around the house naked screaming "NAKED!" while signing "ball." Everyone thinks it is funny but he has no idea why. THREEThe other day while riding in the car with Semilla and Srdjan I nursed Dagny to keep her happy. An emergency vehicle suddenly flew into the intersection in front of us so we stopped abruptly. I was left with my boob in my hand and my mouth wide open from shock. Then I look out the window and a man in the passenger seat of the car next to me is staring at me. AWKWARD. Semilla said, "Jenn! That guy is staring at you!" It was too late. What a ridiculous position to get caught in. |
| Monday, July 13th, 2009 |
| 9:07 pm |
COUCH S.O.S.
I found the most incredible vintage orange sofa. It would look absolutely perfect in my living room. The shitty thing is we can't seem to get it in the house. The front door has a curved entryway and the backdoor leads to a hallway. We were painting today so we did not have much time to try and then my brother cut his hand open. It is currently in the garage at my new place. Fuck me. Is anyone awesome at this kind of thing? My landlord can meet me up there next weekend if anyone can help but really I have no idea how me might do this. The couch has a curve to as well. I don't see how this or any couch can get into my damn apartment. I NEED THIS COUCH IN MY APARTMENT. I bought it from TFA and it is incredible. |
| Wednesday, July 8th, 2009 |
| 11:47 pm |
STFU
I don't see my mom very often. She seems to not have much interest in Dagny. I don't really understand it at all. My brother bitterly says she has no interest in his boys either but she sees them all the time. Her boyfriend hassles me every time I see him about how I am ruining Dagny and I am so tired of him mouthing off and being hostile about my parenting style when my daughter is around. I do not like the nasty jokes and the negative attitude that comes from some of my family members at all. I think it is inappropriate around children and it is certainly not acceptable to ridicule one's parenting style with their child right there. WE WERE AT MY GRANDMOTHER'S FUNERAL and he was harassing me in the kitchen room of the funeral parlor. He and my mom have only seen Dagny a couple times and so Dagny is not exactly squealing with delight when they paw at her. She is an eight month old not a fucking college student. How independent do you expect her to be? And last I checked just about everyone in the family raised children who turned into MISERABLE adults. So why don't you keep your parenting advice to yourself, k? He told me my mom is upset because she can't take Dagny off alone. HELLO THE CHILD DOES NOT EVEN KNOW WHO THE HELL YOU ARE. She knows nothing about veganism or breastmilk or anything i do with dagny nor is she interested as far as I can tell since in 8 months she has only seen her a couple times and only for a few minutes each time. I thought things would be different after Dagny was born. Boy was I wrong. The only family member we ever actually spend time with is my grandma k. If something happens to her we're gonna be lonely. I envy people who have close families. |
| Monday, July 6th, 2009 |
| 8:33 pm |
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| Sunday, July 5th, 2009 |
| 1:39 pm |
The new place
Ginger brought me some boxes the other day and Dagny loves her now! I still need a crapton of boxes if anyone has any please drop them by. :) I took some pictures of the place yesterday. I'm sticking with a July 25th moving date because the kids are going out of town that week with sara so I can have a little time to unpack. If I can get someone to drive a uhaul and some help moving my things I will totally rent a uhaul early in the morning and get this crap done in one load before it gets hot out. Moving with an infant is the suck. So here are a few pictures of the new place. I'm considering painting inside but have no clue what colors would look good with all my stuff. You've seen the playroom colors. Any suggestions? I want to do the dining room one color (my dining chairs and green vinyl) and the living room one or two colors. I also need to find out if there is paint safe to use with a baby in the house. Since I will be painting it myself with D there. I'm getting ahead of myself though I need to pack and get a moving plan first!  ( pics ) |
| Monday, June 29th, 2009 |
| 8:08 pm |
I'm going to preface this with please don't kill me because you love me, amirite?
I went apartment hunting today. I thought living with the family would be perfect for me and Dagny right now but it turns out I need more alone time that I thought. Perhaps it's more of a space thing. It's hard to explain. I need to feel like Dagny and I have something that is ours. I love this space up here with the built in shelves and *sigh* I love family time downstairs but I can't shake the feeling that I am in someone else's space regardless of how nice and awesome they are. The kids have found a place in my heart and I will continue watching them. They are such incredible children and I love the idea that they will grow and learn with Dagny. It is almost like she has siblings. And their mother is also vegetarian and she cloth diapers the youngest. It's hard to find like-minded moms so I told her she better stick around for dinner sometimes. I will be moving to a cute tree-lined street in south city right by a Target, a Schnucks, and a library! And to ![[info]](http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/userinfo.gif) mardouville HOWDY NEIGHBOR! I wonder if you've had your baby yet. So, I think I'm going to have a moving party Saturday, July 25th. I know it's effin hot but if you can come, OMG, it would be awesome. I think if we have enough people we can do it in one day. A couple hours really. I need to have things functioning immediately because of Daggers. I was wanting to wait longer but this week is perfect because the kidlets are out of town so it gives me a few days to unpack before I have to work again. Plus IT'S MY BIRTHDAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I will totally buy some beer or whatever. I'll take requests even. Please let me know if you can help. I'm nervous and excited all at once. Also if you have any boxes send them my way. Pleeeease. I have so much to do and I need to find a washing machine and so much house stuff. The place is super cute and... yeah. |
| Sunday, June 28th, 2009 |
| 10:07 pm |
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| 12:10 am |
I love you, Annie Grace Werner
Spent the last couple days at grandma's house. She is dying in a hospital bed in her living room. The fondest memories of my childhood are thanks to grandma. I used to stay at her house all the time and watch cable tv and drink soda. She took me shopping and when we got home she would let me put curlers in her hair. That was one of my favorite things to do in the whole world. Many of the nice things we had growing up were thanks to grandma. I love her laugh and the silly stories she used to tell. Once she told us about these false boobs she had and during a party one of her children came out with them on his head and she was mortified. The last time I saw her before her illness she was doing very well. She was up running around and she even stole pee pads from the hospital for Daggers to have some naked time. Emotions are running high over there as things do when someone is dying and no one else gets any sleep. My mother was fighting with my uncle and everyone was crying off and on. She's the grandma who recently mocked me for having "morals and such." hehe I used to eat spaghetti-o's and butter bread in her living room watching The Little Prince on Nickelodeon. She'd bitch at my mom if my hair wasn't in pigtails. She once told Grandma K that I was hers and she could have my brother David. She can't talk but she moved her arm and made noises when I talked to her and stroked her hair.  Grandma died last night as the storm rolled in. Mom told her she needed to go. She told her she needed to stop fighting and that she was too sick. She went into the back bedroom and asked dad to "come get her" and within an hour and a half she was gone. We will be playing Take Me Out to the Ballgame at the funeral. Grandma loved baseball just a little bit more than she loved me. ( me and grams ) |
| Thursday, June 25th, 2009 |
| 2:52 pm |
Enough already
My grandmother is non-responsive and will most likely die in the next couple days. I spoke with my mom and she could barely talk. She just keeps crying. Grandma wanted to live long enough to see Dagny walk but she has been so sick that we have not even been able to visit her. It breaks my heart. She took care of me all the time when I was growing up. My brother totaled his car driving drunk. And there's more! But I just don't have it in me to type it out. I can't sleep at night. I have too much on my mind. The kids do a good job of making the week better at least. |
| Tuesday, June 23rd, 2009 |
| 11:25 pm |
Um
 Dagny had my camera in her hand so I was not able to get a shot of her all the way up but she was on her knees pulling toys off the shelf. I took this after I pried the camera out of her hand. (last post today I pLomise) |
| 10:49 pm |
Dagny is hilarious
I made some tofu and dumplings for dinner. Dagny really liked it. She silently ate the carrots and dumplings. THEN I gave her a chunk of tofu and as she chewed it she said "NOM NOM NOM NOM NOM" and smiled at me. ( recipe kind of ) |
| 10:28 pm |
Airports
I saw so many people running into the arms of loved ones on my way to and from Boston. One reunion stuck out in my mind though. A young guy in camo walked out of the terminal in front of me into the arms of a beautiful young lady. There were other kids taking photos. His parents were there and the family stood back while the couple embraced. Everyone was crying. I assume they were crying because they were happy he came home alive. I hate war. I hate that people have to kill each other to accomplish things. It makes me sad to think of all the violence right now. People are suffering right now all over the world and I don't understand why. It baffles me how so many large groups of people can be so shortsighted. It looks so simple when you are not part of it I guess but that doesn't help me understand the mindset of the people causing all this suffering. |
| Monday, June 22nd, 2009 |
| 1:30 pm |
A book rec for babywearing families
 A Ride on Mother's Back shows babywearing all over the world. You see babies riding on parents and grandparents as they do their chores throughout the day. The book is sweet and I love the colorful illustrations. The book is appended by descriptions of the peoples mentioned in the book and a map showing their locations. Speaking of books. Roadtoad sent Dagny Crazy Hair by Neil Gaiman. I think Uncle Scott and Dagny have ( something in common, eh? ) |
| 1:17 am |
Macaroni art for dad?
I always forget about father's day. i wonder if it will be weird for Daggers when she gets a bit older. What do children of single moms do on the day all the school children make "#1 DAD" macaroni art? It's crazy how many single moms are on my F-list. We all have these amazing children and we have to be the mom and the dad. So happy belated father's day to all you dads and single moms. |
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| Sunday, June 21st, 2009 |
| 2:31 am |
I miss my friends already
 The wedding was the most fabulous event I have ever attended. I hope it was everything they dreamed it would be and more. Those two lovebirds were glowing the whole time. I posted some pre-wedding pics on flickr but still have hundreds to go through. |
